Houston, clear for landing.... I'm coming down.

The school year is so close, I can feel its presence slowly creeping under my skin.

Something is wrong with me. REALLY wrong with me. I'm getting restless these days. Everything seems a little off but I can't place my finger on what exactly it is.

Aside from being restless, I'm also really tired. But even so, I still feel like I'm walking around aimlessly. Where the hell am I going? What's the future holding for me?

I say that the future will worry about itself, and I mean it. I'm not worried, but I can't help being a bit curious. Perhaps that is why I'm restless. I know everything will work out, but I'm curious as how it would work out. Like before opening christmas presents, you're restless because you're curious.

Maybe?

Like I said, I can't place a finger on it exactly, so really, I'm just speculating.

Its times like these I shut off... and shut up. I stop thinking entirely, and simply follow whatever intuition I've got. But I'm never really good at living in the present.

Seriously, it doesn't hurt me to be more down to earth. I'm starting to have a hard time separating reality and fantasy. Or rather, reality, and my dream state. I question my actions too many times in the sense of "have I done this before, has this happened before, have I been here before.... or was that in my dream?"

It may sound funny, but I think its starting to become a huge issue. I'm willing to even go as far as saying that I may be at the early stage of developing schizophrenia. I experience sleep paralysis more often than I like. I remember my dreams in crystal clear detail.... as if it was happening to another me in another place and I'm switching between two realities day in and day out.

Scary thought.

That's right, I'm a bit scared. I am.

So, I will stop thinking about it. Just like that. Just live life like always. After all, nothing in reality changed at all. Its in my head.

Good night.

Yuy Ren

Going to bed now. We always feel better in the morning ne?